Digging myself a big hole.... again.

New book, new bag today.
Karaoke.
Just got home. Fun.

Party rockk

RANT DELETED.

Mad party last night. Got smashed. kicked out cause
we put a hole in the wall, apparently.

THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A "LITERACY BLOG" ZZZ

rarr

Skipped through Shadow Over Innsmouth. Didn't like this one, but has a good twist at the end.
Finished assignments.
Recieved my jeans from ebay.
LOLOLLL.

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So I read 'The Dunwich Horror' , 'The Other Gods', 'The Whisperer in the Darkness.'
All pretty awesome. Currently reading 'The Shadow Over Innsmouth.' I think I played
a game based on that: Call of Cthulhu. HP Lovecraft is awesome.
Oh yeah, finished 'The Boy In The Striped Pyjamas' last week.
Had a good day with the mates. Walked around, korean hotpot and laughs.
I love fish!
Going to watch the last episode to Game of Thrones for this season, hope its awesome!
Still waiting on my jeanss tooo, damn.

Cutest half-cast looking girl with short and side-cut hair today. I think I dig that style.

Anything to be an amnesiac; an elixir to rid my mind

Good night last night, went clubbing with a few mates.
Didn't get too smashed, but good enough though.
Hottest fucking girl there, I could spend all day watching her do her bottle rounds LOL.
Drank shit loads of jelly shots for Monica (her bday)..
Mocked the shit out of drunks hitting on the girls,
and acting like skitzo's at Maccas.
Qualityyyy.

Caught up with a mate on the phone earlier.
Bought 3 Fallout bottle cap key rings.
Almost bought like $60 (around 20~) worth of button pins lolol.

Just realised, no fucking eczema in almost a month. LOL.

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It's your friends you gotta beware off

Second time around.

Fever subsided, recovering now.
Planning to do assignment soon, and maybe finish one before I
make a decision to go somewhere tonight.
Haven't been out properly in a while that I think I've forgotten
what it was like. I have forgotten a lot of things, actually.

In the shower earlier my leg started to sting. Turns out I have some scars there.
Turns out I remembered what happened. Hilariously funny. Got blazed and ran down
a steep muddy hill and slipped many times and fell over.
Rofl.

Disintegrate - Young Steff 

Daybreak

Couldn't sleep properly last night. Kept waking up and dreaming and rolling in the cold.
Must've been the fever. Took panadols and had better sleep after. Woke up, fever semi-subsided.
It's gonna come back though..
Driving lesson was alright. Work later tonight but don't think I can go in, being feverish and sick. Hope it cures by Saturday!
Got 2 damn assessments that I have been hard procrastinating on too. Fuuu~
Received two jackets from eBay. One fits good, the other one is a little too big but should be okay.
Waiting for the hoodie & jeans now!
Liking the new hair =]

EDIT: So I felt so shit late afternoon and slept for like 4 hours. Gave my shift away. Did some assignment. Will continue with it tomorrow, hopefully I will be better. Gotta love drugs lol. I've taken 6 panadols and 1 sudafed today, and still thinking of taking more :/

Sickk

Getting a cold / fever .
Got a haircut.
Walked around city.
Zara was pretty boring.
Hot Channel Ten reporter.

Haven't drank in two months. Feels good and free.
Class was okay. Good day. Fine girls in the city.
Beer goggles probably.

LOL I AM SO BITTER

Walls

I'm rebuilding a wall again, and thought's like these, are counter productive.
I refuse and I will not take the chance again.
Some one to share happiness with, someone who wants to try,
who won't give up. Who stays at my side. I really want to ask, and say something,
but I also don't want to do it either. I'd do it if there were a checkpoint,
so I'd save right before it. Save the humility.
No time for this. No time at all.

Semper fidelis, lectors.

On a favourable note, I received my Cert III in Retail. Proud. LOL.
A friend from primary school texted me just earlier. She had a similar name with the ex, just stunned me a little. Now I'm at odds with this reaction.
I start a conversation, then I feel giddy as soon as I press enter. Then I turn into a moth following some light. == Acht!

Stuck in my mind

Who cares if you are sorry,
we're still screwed!
Be sorry about this stuff before you do it,
then don't do it!
It's called growing up!

 - Jeff to Annie

Super 8

Super 8.. Always on edge of the seat when you're trying to figure out what the creature is (and wanting to see it too), but as soon as it is revealed, a lot of the movie becomes average. Kids are cool. Surprised the girl is Dakota Fanning's younger sis too.

And then there were two

Slept early last night. Woke up early today. Layed in bed for like 3 hours.
Dreamt of a $10,000 small shot bottle of peanut based alcoholic spirit. Weird.
Mucked around with Instagram, and received my Zelda hoodie. Chyeaa!
Spoke on the phone for a few hours.
Getting ready for driving lesson in an hour.
Going to a staff screening to Super 8 tonight.
Probably bring the regular guys and Monica, since its her birthday.
Wanting to get a haircut too: side shaved 1 or 2 with possibility of lines + other side short instead of usual medium.
Going to be capped soon. Under 500MB until next week. Fuck.

EDIT: So just came back from driving. Did better than last week apparently.
Did some mistakes lol, where I was doubting the turn and all. But good progression.
Don't think Super 8 is a go for tonight, I really want to find out what the creature is.
Driving tomorrow as well, again.

Community. Breaking Bad. Game of Thrones. How I Met Your Mother.

Modern Family. Big Bang Theory. Vampire Diaries.

What else, what else?

And for a second, he thought his eyes had glinted green in the candle light.

[EDITED AWAY], my lips are zipped today,
what I saw, kept everything at bay :P

.. Anyway, half the class wagged today. I didn't though.
Didn't go through the cold and wet for nothing.
After uni went MC and hung out with Henry for an hour, catching up and stuff.
Looked at a few jeans, but too expensive.
Almost decided to buy July something but realised again that we are nothing now. She probably would've not liked it lol.
So spent the extra cash on another hoodie online later.
Went home straight after that and F5 and tumblr'd my way to 11pm.
Hood that I bought was a 'Cool story bro' sweater.
Haven't played COD in a week and already my reflexes are diminished too a 1:1 ratio :/ bad.
Been watching I aM mE Crew and especially the talented Olivia 'Cha Chi' Gonzales.
She's fucking talented as.
Good thing E3 is happening around this time too. Pretty sick trailers and stuff.
Battlefield 3 'Thunder Run' mission looks awesome,
Skyrim is around the corner, AC4, Lara Croft and other ones. Niice.
No good UFO news for a while, that is interesting.
Ummm, saw some episodes of Community and this weeks Game of Thrones.
I'm starting to like Daenerys alot. She's hot, getting fierce, and her tribe is getting more interesting.
Want to see more of Alya, or whatever the little one is called, and her sword fighting. Hope her teacher didn't die :/
Driving tomorrow late noon. Sleepy. Catching a cold.
Goodnight and always, caveat lector.

Somethings can't be said

It have extremely small handwriting - on the whiteboard. It looked fine when I was up close. Everyone had a hard time reading it. Funny.
Had a good burger for lunch. Now, time to start on assignment review. Damn.

Eye of the Storm

Calmest I've been in the past weeks. This is good. Completed Witcher II. Good game with good graphics too. Interesting plot and story. Just hated the combat at the start, bad tutorial and stupid running around. Bad ending though. Trying to begin on a review assignment, either on a production, CD or a movie.
Can not think of one! Damn it. I'll do it tomorrow during uni.
Also, where the fuck is my Cert III in Retail?! I want my certificateeeeeeee.
This week,
I should be expecting my arrival of a Zelda Triforce hoodie, and two jacket/hood's from eBay.
Need to find out shoe size.
Possible driving lesson.
Work.
Assignment's due.
Shopping with the ex.
Possible catch up with Shaz / Zak.
TV episodes.
Hope it's a good week.

A good memory

Grey skies, a storm brewing in the distance.
Leaves, drifting softly on the lake’s banks.
Cold, miserable.
Me, sister, uncle.
I think: fishing sucks.
A family, nearby, feeding ducks.
Fishing rod, I cast.
Finally, I caught something, at last.
I look. I sigh.
I watch the ducks fly.
I look at my catch, a bird on the line latched.
My uncle, in the water wrestling.
Against the sky, my duck flailing.

From the depths, we rose, from slumber.

The art of love is largely the art of persistence.
            -Albert Ellis

Interesting. I will post more tonight when I get back.

EDIT: So I am back lol. Uneventful, easy night out.

The Road Less Travelled

I think I'm going to stop and think about how things are going, taking a step back from all that has been happening.Going to prioritise on assignments and quality of life before anything else.
No point wallowing in despair about something, I've been throwing myself forward and ignoring the fact that people all have flaws. I've come into terms with that and I guess I'm in the current mood right now to say so.
I'm not looking for another shot now or soon. I'm not the perfect guy for her,
and she's not the perfect one for me either. We have differences as well as things about
each other that we mayn't like, and I've accepted that too. You know how the saying goes:

You don't know what you have till it's gone

As I said, we may not be perfect but she's the right one for me. I've made a lost and I have to come to terms to it. In the future, we'll see what it holds. This time I'll take the other road less travelled:

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
                - The Road Not Taken

Too accepting perhaps?

Early night sleeps lately. Woke up early for the driving lesson. Instructor is awesome to get along with, which is good. Better lessons and stuff than what I've had. Worth it. A button on my bomber jacket fell out and I bought a Zelda jacket on eBay. Was thinking of getting a worthier, 'useful' gift for the ex-missus, to remedy and end things in a good note. Called up Swin-IT to unlock my account, too which was good.
Sunny and a good day too. Whole street is littered with autumn leaves, orange and crisp. Beautiful. Warm and exuberant. I feel like that too, with a twinge of winter. But I have a plan for her. She won't like it, but it is something I want to do. Least to say, I'd love to do my assignments just sitting on her bed, instead of here alone. Blah.

EDIT: Finished my first assignment. Going have to do my RRR radio station interview one soon, as well as Australian Tourism / Migrant one. Will email the station later.